Things have not been all well for me. The gerl has not been in a good mood this few days. It has affected me caused i m easily affected by the mood of my loved ones around me. Daddy has not been in a good mood especially since his retirement is nearing and a deadline is coming up. I do wonder how we could cope with things if he doesnt land a job back at his current employment place. Hopefully we will get blessings from HIM and may daddy get his work.

Now all im doing is staring at the square box at home or on the net, just browsing around. I am just praying for better skies just like the weather out there..... I don't want another holiday just gone to waste.....

Till then

FinallY......

Finally im back to writing at this blog

Don't know if im jus to busy or acting to be busy with things or just plain lazy... I need a push sumtimes n i wonder from where that push will come from. Maybe it has to be her, but sumtimes its just me... being plain lazy..

So much things have happened since my last entry. I'm enjoying life so much that i wish that it will last for a life time, right my beau. She has definitely shape up my life. Her relentless support, advices, love, her cuteness, sweetness, i jus adore her. Now that we have decided to make things a step further, i hope that sign that's on your ring, will bring better time for us ya. Thanks for making this life so wonderful sayang. I'm blessed to have her in my life. Well, won't say too much or boast about thing. I'm grateful to ALLAH, that's for sure.

Work has never been tiring as this before. Eversince we shifted, there is so much things to do. But i guess god has its ways for me to achieve things at a greater heights in the future. It has been a testing time for me, with so much things for me to consider and decide. I wish god will show me the way out soon from all this issues. I wish i can turn back time and start things all over again and not make the mistakes i have done. But one thing i would never change is my beloved jewel of my life.

For you, my beau, are the only gem in my life, my pride and my joy.

With lots of love from me to you!!

Come every 9th August, i will be all excited
Behaving like a child wanting to watch the parade
But this time round, that zest n enthusiasm is nowhere to be found
Nontheless I still catch it on TV
Loved the fireworks
But its just too bad that i miss it this time round
Would have been nice to catch it with my loved one....
Some other time i guess

Things have not been on the up for me
So much things to do
The gerl is busy with her things
Cant wait to meet up with her soon
Guess I'm missing her a lot

Or maybe I should take a break during the holidays and go somewhere
Just to relax my mind
and be away from things
I dont know.
Let my mind ponder............

Its been the Longest time

Its been so long since i wrote something on this "abandoned" blog. Had been too busy with lots of things. Hopefully i am able to dedicate a bit of my time to this blog. This is the place where i should pour out my feelings, moments in life... everything i should say.

Well sometimes certain things that happens to me makes me ponder upon it. Is it a big test of patience to me? Or its just to make me realise that life is not even bed of roses. Always wanting you to be on your feet all the time and stand guard and take control of things. Is that what it means? Im still trying to find the answers to this happenings. Certain things do make me feel sad and ya, makes me cry. But what is life without hurt? sadness? cruelty? Its really amazing to see how others in life take their loved ones for granted. Failing to cherish them while they are still around, giving them ful attention and care for them every single moment. But once they disappear from their very eyes, the feeling of regret sinks in. It is just too late. Time wont be able to change what has been done. Yes, reality is cruel. Once done can never be undone.

So, before things happen for the worse in the future, learn to treasure, respect, honour, care, and love your loved ones with all your heart. You never know when they will be gone........................

When a woman cries, it means she is hurt badly.
But when a man cries, what does it mean???

Updates......

Its been a long time since i last blog
Its been busy now with more worklaod coming in and with training for the competition
But i guess more time is spent with my love one
I miss her to every bit that i just want to hug her and not let go
How could i not miss her right
She just makes me feel that i am the most luckiest man in the world
Could not have ask for more

I'm just brazing this 8 weeks to the end of the semester
It may seem short but trust me,
with the workload i have
8 weeks wont be enough
Wish i could do work in a slow pace

I wonder if i am able to last long here
But i know paperwork is my weakness
Especially if i have to bring the work home
Its gonna be difficult for me
Wonder if i should move on and try to do something that does not take up a lot of my time at home

I wonder..............

Bad dAy....

Have been a bad day today.....
missing my dear badly
every little things i do, im reminded of her... haiz....
Had a BAD day to just top things up
Was like having a war with one of my students
More like a vicious battle
getting slap and thrown at
but hey, thats my werk.

Just one of those bad days.....

It seems i am not able to blog much
Waiting for those dark clouds to be over
Hopefully it will clear soon
It's terrible to feel this way.....

Till then..................

SileNce

HaVe you actuaLLy feLt hoW siLencE could BE if yoU diDnt geT to heAR fRom yOur LOvE OnE??EspEciAlly aftEr you diD a bLundEr whiCh you shouLd noT do. I dId...AnD i'm GettIng a TastE of whAt it Is liKE to feEL aLL thAT siLEnce.... I reaLLy feLt the emptineSs whEn i DidnT heAr fRom yoU...What more can i do after what is doNE? I canT undO whaT i Did and I knOw it Warrants a puniShmEnt but as i say... Im reGreTting my actions. aLL i caN hoPe foR is fOR this perioD to paSS trU...

DonT knOw what more tO wriTe... JusT hOpiNg foR a cLeaR heAd anD mY heArt at eAse soon..