Here i am, bumming around at home and staring at the screen. With the uncertainty of when is pay day. all i can do is wait... furthermore with the holidays coming to an end. it will just do us injustice to get our pay late this time round. at least give us the time to spend on our bounty rewards. feel as though im being mugged. Oh well, Just wait lah, so unfair!!!

Rather than lambasting about this, i should just carry on doing my stuffs. Much more productive in that way. Anyway, yesterday's cycling was a good one. Especially with the fine weather, the ride from tampines to east coast via changi was nothing less than a spectacle. The scenery somewhere along nicoll drive, was awesome. With the new park connector that was just recently completed and much publicised, you may just find a few spots with sights to behold. You should try to catch the sight at the mouth of the river bank (Just behind Tanah Merah Country Club) where it stretches out to the sea. Oh my, you can really find peace unlike other places you can find in singapore. I would want to go there again...

Now now, I'm starting to miss my love one. Pondering when can i meet her again...
When can we get to do some of the things that we want to do??
Sushi, spa and sentosa?? will we have time to do it? hopefully we have ya baby.

Have you ever wonder when someone come's into your life and you started to change for the better? Change and mend your ways? for the better? Lifts up your spirits and make you know that you are the one that she desires the most? well, i certainly felt that way. Never had I, had someone coming into my life and really brings out the best in me. The way i think, speak, behave, i'm slowly evolving to someone new. A brand new me. So much so that I feel a lot of love flowing in me.

Will never stop praying for both of us. neither would i stop missing you, just like how i feel right now.

Till the next time.....

2 more dayS.........

Yup, 2 more days to the big 7...
been a journey that is never a bed of roses, one where it is filled with joy, fun, and not forgetting its fair share of the downside. But i shall say, its a journey worth being on. One where it will make love stronger, learn to cherish and treasure.... embracing in each other's arm, not caring about what other's will say.

The issues that surfaces, the arguments we had, are just signs of how much god wants us to learn and love each other. It certainly binds us closer, making us wanting more of each other and never want to be separated. Insya allah, we will be able to face and rise to the challenges that stands before us. When you whispers those vows to my ears, I know there is no turning back for me now. No one will replace you in my heart. What more could i ask from god? I have you. All in a way, a prefect fit of a future soulmate. One who bears my children, be a great wife and mother.

You have certainly taught me to love every single date.... even the simplest of it... waddling in the drizzle and with barefoot... it was simply fun... When was the last time i did that?? maybe i would do that more often. Hehehe...

I wished we could have all the time in the world to do outdoor stuffs... Adventure into things we have never done before. Challenging ourselves to reach new heights. It might help us bond and definitely learn more about each other... what say you??

Now, for one fact that i wanna share is that I am blessed to have a wonderful gerl in Dianah. Non replaceable, and definitely a lady who brings out the best in me. Patience is her virtue, you definitely know what i mean.. hehehe esp in times when my silliness and blurness strikes.... hahaha.. She cares a lot for me even in every little way. You know how words wont be enough to show my gratification and how much love i have for you. The ring shall be a sign of my sincerity and of things to come... It shall bind us close and reminds us of our love... Now, Future & Forever....

I thank you for coming into my life... yes i'm loving the gerl that captures my heart. Every single moment of it. And its really heartwarming to read what you have written. It makes me feel special.
A big THANK YOU to you my beau.....

Fairuz

&

Dianah

bound by

kasih

sayang

&

cinta

It has been 6 mths now that we are together and i'm truly glad that we had last this long
learning things and finding out more about each other ...be it strength or weaknesses...
yet, through all that we have been through, i believe it just brings us a little closer. Never a romance is a bed of roses... it is indeed a life like a box of chocolates. Not sure what is installed for us... Hopefully life is not a joke or i won't be able to understand it.

You made me realise that failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently and tactfully. You make me realise my dreams and true potential without you knowing it. Well, you refused to take credits but ya, you did have a part to play in helping me to where i am now. Remember always, "Behind a successful man, there is always a woman". And you are that woman!!

I enjoyed every date that we had. Even the simplest of dates does put a smile on my face. laying my eyes on you, seeing your sweet face, warms my heart. And ya, that very face of yours cools me down when im feeling hot. I will never ask for more than what i am given by HIM. You are a blessing to me. And i am grateful for that. To you, your parents for bringing you in this world and to god for allowing me to hold you in my arms and have you close to me.

Never i felt a single regret bring with you. Even when times when you are feeling down and unsure of things, I put up a brave front and telling myself positive thoughts that will just erase every bad feelings i would have. I percaya that i should live out my imagination, not my history. As all i need is a plan, road map and the courage to press on with the destination in my life, that is to bewith you. For eternity, insya allah.

Sayang, just to let you know, I shall always be your pillar of strength, eventhough i may not be that macho man. I am in my own way and i show my manliness different from how one shall percieve. You may count on me for anything, insya allah i will for i learnt and was taught. Never would i think of losing you nor have you sad over things. Remember your happiness bug. Hope it will stay around with you for life. In happiness you found joy. In joy you find yourself. And when you found yourself, that is when you start to love others.

Oklah... have done much typing but yet not sleepy. Don't know why. And the hiccup is killing me. Guess it might just be the surgery. Haiz... Till then... hope to hear from you soon.....

Finally i'm back...
blogging things down here..
Been a while, more than a month since i blog..
But ini pun pasal aku tak dapat tidor...

Been having a bad hiccup since i had an minor surgery on wednesday...
To remove my wisdom tooth...
Oh my, it took d dentist more than an hour to get it out.
Degil sangat gigi aku tu...
Hahaha... Nonetheless, i had cuts on my left lips...
All thanx to the dentist and the difficult tooth

Well, what can i do to get myself to sleep...
Maybe penning down my feelings and thoughts might jus do the trick

Why is the human mind and heart so complicated to understand...
Maybe that's the reason why scientist, psychologist and other braniac till this very day,
could not find the specific answer to this very question of mine

I'm just contemplating on this thoughts i had...
why people have never a definite answer to what they want in life?
Why do they have to come to a crossroad when they have already set the road map?
Why is men never contented with what they have?

I hope i know the answer, but all i can say is, men are created in a way such that they will never be contented with what they have, until they start losing something precious. Speaking through experience i guess. But hey nver will i make any mistake in the future, as i have learnt to be contented with what i have. Its all god's gift. So treasure it while it last for you will only regret when you let go off it.

The mind and the heart( our feelings) never work in a way that it compliments each other. There are times where it contradicts.

Lets look at how a mind works. It works in way that u rationalize things and thus stating the pros and cons of a certain issue that you or me might be facing. After which you make decisions on the very facts that you attained from the rationalizing that you made. But then, you make that decision without following what your heart/feelings says.

As for the heart. As it says, "feelings", it entirely depends on how you feel towards a certain situation. Never gonna put into consideration of how the mind feels. Just making decision that you feel is right.

In what ever way it is, whether you use your mind or your feelings to make a decision, it might just not be the right answer you are looking for. You might just make the wrong move that you will regret the whole of your life.

Just a thought i had and feel needed to be pen down...
P.S.. If you do have to make a decision, its best to consult both your mind and feelings. 2 is always better than 1 rite???

Ciaoz....